Continuation of Part 1: Making Out in the Surf (Life as Baywatch)
So, I moved to Los Angeles…..
I lived with my friend in her studio apartment, where I slept on her couch…..and broke all of her dishes because “they were so slippery when I was trying to wash them” (very patient friend!)…eventually moving into the cheapest apartment I could find. It was only $450, AND it had a pool where I could swim laps. “Laps” might be an exaggeration. The pool was about 15 meters across, so really this was me pushing off one side and arriving at the other…. Repeat…. and it must have been a sight to see, because lacking the funds for new pool goggles, I swam “laps” with scuba goggles and a snorkel.
I rollerbladed down the palm lined streets and hummed David Hasselhoff’s theme song as I drove down the 10. BUT, I also sat in hours of traffic to get to the palm lined streets; I played crappy gigs on Wednesday’s at 12:30am; my keyboard was stolen out of my car; I was double booked; not paid; fell while rollerblading; experimented with “Coke” (-a-cola) as the remedy for everything in order to avoid the cost of going to the doctor (though I had $200/month insurance which seemed only to cover the cost of my coffin should I need one); I did not rescue anyone from the jaws of the Pacific; and, as it turns out, making out in the surf was not all that comfortable. Full of surprises, wonder AND the mundane, life keeps teaching me that it is different than my fantasy…..sometimes better, sometimes not. And it contains much more daily than an episode of Baywatch.
It’s fascinating to explore the dissonance between life on the “big screen” of my mind, and how life plays out in the “real world”; between “should be” and all that actually “is”. I have struggled with, and am learning to live with the seeming limits of my power and reach, slowly realizing that I can’t solve all the problems of the world, and actually, often have my hands full with the arena of my daily life.
While I may not be the super hero I imagined being as a child, while my life may not look like the romantic comedies so often seen on TV, and while I may not be saving lives every day like the Baywatch lifeguards…I am here. I keep showing up for the life lessons. In the process of being “present” in my life, I have discovered that magic and super powers DO exist, but on a much different scale and in much subtler ways and that we “save” each other every day….in smiles, and kisses, and generous hearts, and compassion, and singing, and dancing, and expression, and love, and open minds, and in our own ways, and, and, and…..this is the story of my song “Differently”. (Can’t figure out how to stream it on this page, but you can Download it here.)
And, let’s be honest, when the cameras weren’t rolling, probably some of the people on Baywatch drowned. They couldn’t save everyone.
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